Tuesday, March 25, 2014

Where was God? 上帝在哪儿?

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God, you could have f***ing saved them. What the hell?

You should have.

I am soooo angry. So so so angry. Last night I heard the news about the Malaysian flight- how it crashed in the goddamn Indian Ocean with no survivors. All of China has worried about it for 2 straight weeks- worried so much that I got tired of worrying.

Why did this happen? The world is stupid.

God, why did this happen?

It hits me hard because those people were all just like me and my coworkers and my students. People who have the money to travel internationally. Maybe for a vacation or a business trip. People who shared photos on social media and posted about how excited they were for the trip. And worried about their luggage exceeding the weight limit. And got stopped at security because of a water bottle.

The majority of the passengers were Chinese. The ones who were my age were their parents' only child. And I don't even want to think about what happened on the plane, and the extra confusion thrown in by language barriers.

This is so stupid. The world's not safe, you guys. WHERE WERE YOU, GOD?

What can we do? Just keep praying, keep living our lives- value every day because life is so fragile. And look forward to the day when God will save us all, and there will be no more crying or pain.

But until then, God, WHAT THE HELL?

Yeah, this post was supposed to be about Psalm 94. It's not. But if there's one thing the psalms have taught me, it's that you can tell God exactly how you feel. He can take it.

And he feels all our pain.

But this is still not okay.

It matters so much to me because there's a freakin' planet and a 12-hour flight separating me from my family. I'm already afraid of flying.

Oh God...

God... why?

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This post is part of a link-up on the topic of Psalm 94. To read other people's posts, click here: What do we do with vengeance Psalms? Here are 4 ideas.

2 comments:

  1. That was my initial thought. This was these people's only child. It's always terror to lose a child, but these people must feel so alone now. If it makes you feel better, I barely slept the first four days after I heard. It was just so upsetting. But I ask God this about a lot because I don't undrstand why he gives us so much free will.

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  2. "Yeah, this post was supposed to be about Psalm 94. It's not. But if there's one thing the psalms have taught me, it's that you can tell God exactly how you feel. He can take it." YES! So glad you feel this way. And I'm so sorry for the way you have had to grapple with this tragedy.

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